SAD~~~

today is my first time big quarrel with ah fat...we not quarrel face to face..is in the message...so funny rite...but i feel not funny...i feel very sad...i think ah fat also sad....why quarrel? becos of my childish...haiz...this month schedule i dun like...coz only 1 day same off day with him...i hate it!!! i cant with him quite long time...although now i live in his house...live together but feel not...when i work..he off...when i off....he work...very upset about this....this is the root cause of the today quarrel...i'm working now...is midnoght shift...but today they say will power shut down...so i and 2 crew stay here to standby when they on power again...but until now havent shut off the power..i called the management...they say maybe havent turn to my side...so we are waiting....before i go out working...he dunwa acc me go to mrt station...i feel sad...cos this whole day i alrdy alone at home...i just want him acc me only 15 minutes..he also dunwa...when i nag him...then he say acc me but he not really want..i feel sad...i dun like he do like that...i want he acc me without i say...we alrdy no much time together..so i very appreciate the time that can together...but i feel he not care..then we start to quarrel in message...i cried at my working place...i think he also cry...haiz...very childish rite...but to me is not...cos i'm very care how much time that we can together....this month alrdy nag how many times about this...i still feel sad....really dunno how to express what i want actually...just want to find some way to spilt out my unhappy...do u know what i want actually??? i just want be with u more and more...just only simple things...pls...if u want go out with frens..pls go when i'm working...if i off day...pls come back early if finish work...i really feel this month no time together...do we hv go out together this month?? only half day for buying bed...no..only few hours with me...very dissapointed...very upset...aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!